Oh how I understand!!  It has been 1 1/2 years since my break up and I see her almost everyday because I still take care of her daughter that we raised together for 10 1/2 years while she works (strange hours).  She sometimes asks me to take care of her so she can go out and I do, even though I told her when we broke up for her never to ask me to do that.  I don't know how to make it stop hurting I wish I did.  I also allowed her the freedom to go out and have fun with our friends while I stayed home with our daughter.  I always thought I was supporting her by doing this as she has a high stress job.  She was either working, partying or playing sports but always came home to tell me how much she loved me, but then it was gone.  Maybe we should have been bitches instead of understanding.  Maybe we should have put our foot down.  Not only did I lose her, but she got all the friends.  I am never asked to friends houses because she will be there.  She just announced to me that she is dating a special person, which broke my heart again, she wanted me to hear it from her rather than through the grape vine.  Which was nice, but the only reason that she did it was because a freind told her she needed to because we would be at the same place together and the friend didn't want me taken by surprise. 

  I don't talk to anyone because I don't want to burden anyone with my misery, but it has been almost 2 years! how do I get over this??  How do you get over it??  I have yet to find anyone that I am attracted to even a little so how do I start dating again.  I don't have a lot of money so going out is not something that I can do on a regular basis to even meet someone.  I need to move on, but then her sister told me that she admitted to her not long ago that she had made a mistake and that she should have never left me.  Then 3 weeks later she tells me she is dating someone special good god how much hope did I have before that?  Well how stupid of me to even want her back after all this heart break, but I would.  If you come up with an answer to our problem please let me know as I will for you. 

 Lets try to keep our thoughts positive and continue to be good people and maybe we will eventually get our turn at true happiness.  By the was she is not a very happy person and I have asked her why because as I point out to her you  got everything that you wanted,  freedom, a new job, a beautiful new home, a new vehicle, a beautiful intelligent (sometimes a little bit of a hand full, but just like her mother) daughter and all our friends what more could you possible want or need and she doesn't answer.

It has been one year since my ex girlfriend said "I am not in love with you anymore". This came out of nowhere. In less than one minute I lost her, her daughter that I helped raise for 6 yrs. our dreams.  She kept telling me how much she loved me every day of our relationship. I trusted her to go out at night to enjoy herself, I stayed home with the kid. She left me for a man, that dropped her within 2 months.  She is still in my life, it is hard to say goodbye because of her child.  She is very cold towards me at times, then other times, she invites me to do things.  She tells me she is not dating anyone, then she tells everybody else that she is, then she tells me that she is. I don't know what to believe. Just that the trust we built, ended in seconds. My heart aches everyday for her. I still work, I am doing well with that, but everything reminds me of her. I have settled into the routine of just coming home. Will this pain go away? Will I stop thinking about her every day?  I don't understand what her intentions are.  I want this pain to end. this is my first breakup ever. We were together for 6  yrs.We were even business partners, had a store. We closed that 2 yrs before we broke up. I thought trusting her would keep her at my side.