Don't know if anyone is reading these much these days, but I feel the need to release some emotion here...

This week signifies the beginning of the first anniversary period of the death of my former partner(dec 2), her aunt (dec 23) and her mother (jan 30).  If you have read some previous posts you will understand... I am also dealing with relationship changes and the day to day of being a single parent of a 15 year old... my plate is full and yet I am thankful for those who have been here and those I have met along this year's journey.  Without you all I am sure this would have been more difficult than it has been. 

i also wanted to say that God has shown me a great deal about myself and has given me the peace to be able to deal with things for the most part, without too much difficulty.  However, as the past and memories of the holidays come back, I know that I will need Him even more and my friends as well.  So as the holidays begin, give thanks for what you have, for all of life's experiences for without them you wouldn't be who you are, and hold those you love close to your heart, even if it is from a distance...

 C

Need some help with a situation... got a friend ( and yes really it is a friend, not me) who has recently gotten into a relationship with a woman who has two children, she just got out of a relationship with a woman with a child.  They moved into together after only dating for two months.  My friend's ex is still living in the house my friend financed, driving the car she got the loan for and the ex is supposed to make the payments... of course she is late or has missed a payment or two.  She signed a year lease on apartment with the new GF and now the new GF has decided she needs to move back to Idaho as she doesn't have a job here...leaving my friend with the apartment payment as well...  

 Needless to say this is a mess... my friend is an emotional wreck and although she has a good heart, she has stuck herself Waaaaaaay out there... so for starters can you all send a few prayers up for her.  Secondly, is there anyone who has some knowledge or advice for me to be able to help her get her collective self together? 

 Thanks!

LMAO!!

Thanks ladies...all I can say is I'M TRYING!

  OMgosh OT, someone is going through football withdrawls... LOL!

Well, I wouldn't consider relationships that don't workout as strikeouts... if that were the case I think I would be out of the game and not just an inning!!   In reality, they are all lessons and opportunities for growth.  You definitely learn a lot about yourself and hopefully you grow with each encounter.  K you are new to the game, so just keep swinging... you will eventually get that HIT you are looking for.  Not every person you get into a relationship with is "the one"... heck, most of us spend most of our lives looking for that, but as OT says, sometimes with work and patience, relationships can turn into "the one".    

  Oh and OT, does this mean you only can score after hard work and time?   Hmmmm..... need to check your playbook... may need to be updated!!  LMAO!!!   

Change Teams... good one!!

Long story short…

STRIKE TWO for me in the love department! I was hoping the second was a keeper but didn’t work out that way. We have our memories and what’s in your heart is all that matters.  So, no worries…just haven’t found her yet!

Ok am I the only one who has emotions to work through... LOL!   Come on now, with the economy in a downward spiral, people losing their jobs or being demoted, it is tax season and all that comes with that.... I can't be the only one who needs a little support, can I? 

Thanks K,

Been doing better, just one more funeral this weekend and I hope that will be it for a long time for this family.  Getting into a new routine and moving forward.  One thing is for sure, life goes on and even if you step out of the stream for a bit to settle, you eventually have to get back in the flow. 

 Appreciate the support and for being there. 

C

Crusher,

I know what you mean. I’ve been there many times myself. It’s definitely a test of faith and requires a great deal of strength too! The bible verse that always helps me cope is John 3:16. A couple of songs that come to mind:

When I get where I’m going  - Brad Paisley & Dolly Parton

Holes in the Floor of Heaven  -  Steve Wariner

I pray it a case that you can find peace and comfort!

Not sure exactly how to get this out, so bear with me... I am finding that I am beginning to reach my limit with regards to losses in and around my family.  Some new and helpful perspectives would be greatly appreciated. 

For history, I lost my former partner on Dec. 2nd, overdosed on her pain medications we were still living together and I found her, we then lost her Aunt on Dec. 23rd to lung cancer and her mother is now on hospice with terminal breast/bone cancer.  I found out today that a friend of ours and my daughter's former teammate just lost their 30 year old son/brother to a dirt bike race accident.  One of the ladies I golf with may lose her husband soon....

My first reaction to the latest news was "common God, don't you think we have had enough?!!!"  REALLY struggling folks!  Maybe I am just hyper sensative to losses, but it just seems that the "hits just keep on comin... " 

Right now, all I can do is sit here and shake my head in disbelief... I know there are reasons and I also know I am not the first person that this has ever happened to or around... just makes it hard to find peace when you lose pieces of your family and friends so close together. 

HELP!

Wishing everyone health, happiness and prosperity in 2009! Even numbered years are better for me but so far so good. Now that I’m out, hopefully I can find my true love too!

I am hoping for happiness for us all and to live life to the fullest and have fun and dance and laugh and love and hugs too!  My goals for the moment are to stop eating all these delicious cookies!  LOL.

Tonka

How is everyone doing so far in 2009? 

 What are some of your hopes and goals for this new year?  Do you have any expectations or predictions to share?

Thank you Crusher, and Merry Christmas to you too.  May you continue to find peace and the happiness that you deserve. Merry Christmas to all the wonderful women here .  I am so glad we have a place to come to when we need support and prayers.  A place where we can also help others when they need our support and prayers.  I appreciate each and every one of you . . . . God bless you all and may you have a safe and happy Christmas !

                                       OT

I have been up and down through the past couple of weeks and I have felt and appreciate all of your prayers and thoughts.  I will say that although I do not understand the purpose of these events and the loss, I do know that there were many things set in place before this loss to help me and my family get through it.  I did not recognize them at the time, but looking back I am convinced that people and actions were definitely placed and executed on our behalf so that we would be able to bear all that a loss can bring.  For these people and events I feel extremely blessed and thankful. 

I am finding peace and resolution day by day a little bit at a time, I wish peace and joy for all of you. 

Merry Christmas to you all.