Hi my name is Ki, I'm 44 and my partrner is Kathy and she is 42. Where do I start??? We have been together for almost 8 years. About a 11/2 after we got together she was diagnosed with copd. We have 7 kids between us. At that time her mom and 4 kids were living with us. I was the only one working outside the house, it was very hard. She finally recieved disabillity about 11/2 years after that. Then I could finally take time to think about what just happened. My first thought was I want to make sure we can get in a lifetime in a short amount of time. Her sister moved in with us and she had a termial illness also I felt like the outsider. Along with her copd came major depression with anxiety. She is pretty much house bound. This is not what I had planned. We moved to Pa. and have not made any friends. I really want us to do things. We just got back from rehoboth for a weekend. I need to find support!!! Do I live the life she wants to because in all actually she will be the first to go. But then I have no one. I always thought it would get better but it has'nt. Any suggestions. This is a very long story but not enough room.
We were suppose to go camping with a group of girls she got sick and i told her i was going to take my 8 month grand daughter and go any way. i am a very shy person so this was very hard for me. She was upset that i did not stay home with her. Tell me what i should do because I do feel guilty .