Hi my name is Ki and my partner is Kathy we have been together almost 8 years. She has copd which will be terminal we moved to Pa 8 years ago and we have no close friends I have been telling her that I want us to find some friends we can get close to. I will need this when she passes I don't want to go through it alone. She was diagnosed about 6 years ago which through her into major depression and she wound up getting anxiety alot. She would sooner stay home and do nothing. I feel bad about wanting more and guilt plays a big role in that. I am not looking for a gf I want us to find friends we both can bond with. You have to understand I am very shy we both are and i tell her we can do this together. Last weekend we were suppose to go camping with a group of girls we had never met she got sick and said she was not going I on the other hand said i was taking my grand daughter (8 months old) and we were going. Don't get me wrong this was so hard and scary but I did it. Now she is upset that I went. She said she would not have gone without me. I am in a rut and I don't know how to get out of it. Believe me this is a long story!!!! so if you have questions ask me but right now i need help!!!! thanks Ki