Recently I have been exposed to some very unappealing offers by straight girls and their spouses.  Not to say that I have no interest in ever being with a man again, but to be blatantly invited along as a plaything is rather repellant.

Until last weekend I was rock solid in my feelings about my sexuality.  I was never going to be with a man again adn felt very strongly about that; however, a friend of a friend went to a lot of work and took what I think was a lot of guts to ask me on a date. (knowing that I identified as a lesbian)  I told him I would let him take me out, and it was a great evening.  I have since been out with him twice.

This in no way lessens how I feel about women or even relationships.  I have decided that I am most definitly a Bi sexual.  I am however one of what seems to me a MAJOR minority amongst "bi-sexuals" I am the monogamous type.  If I sleep with someone, I am only sleeping with them until it is made clear otherwise.  If I am dating thats one thing, but there is no sex, and I couldn't be less interested in three somes.

I only know one other true Bi-Sexual, and she has been with her wife for 9 years.  I spoke with her abou tthe misconnceptions out there regarding bi-sexuality and she said something very amazing to me.  she said, "imagine you had just been dropped in a room with no outside stimuli, you had had no anything from the outside world and yet you were still attracted to both genders.  What would you think of yourself?"  I told her I would think nothing of it, because that is what I felt and with nothing to tell me it was wrong, I wouldn't know it was concieved of that way.

My issue is this,  in the GLBT community, bi sexuals are ostracised.  Not to make gross generalizations, but gays typically speak in the negative about us.  Is that because of a fear in the community or what?

I just know that If I were to tell my ex GF that I had dated a man and was still attracted to women too that her voice would be disdainful and then she'd probably stop talking to me.